Day 13: This Is Not Boring


This is it.  This is what I did after the kids went to sleep, and this is what I thought about all day while they were awake.  Fabric.  I love fabric, and making things out of it.  I like how colorful it is, and I like how it brightens what is, for me, a bit of a drab life right now.  Oh sure, being a stay at home mom is wonderful, amazing, even transcendent.  I adore spending all day every day with my kids and watching them achieve every little milestone.  I find every piece of their artwork to be perfect, their utterances priceless, and their abilities unparalleled.

Not really.  Actually, above everything else, I find being a stay-at-home-mom mind-numbingly boring.  There.  I said it.  Go ahead, judge me.  I know I’m supposed appreciate the station I’m at.  After all, not everyone can afford to live like we do.  Heck, we can’t really afford to live like we do.  But putting four kids in daycare?  The price would be astronomical.  And it’s not like I hate what I do.  I don’t.  And it’s not that I don’t like spending time with my kids.  I just wish that, every once in awhile, I could find something else to talk about besides diapers and sicknesses and Fisher-Price.  I wish I could wear exciting clothes and have an exciting hairstyle and take exciting classes and visit exciting places.  I’d like to wear heels and skirts and be in charge of someone older than 4.

I think everyone must feel this way sometimes.  Even people who do what they love to do every moment of the day must get tired of it to some extent.  And I know that one day my kids will grow up and the memories of these days will be more exciting than anything else in my life.  But for now I’m treading water in a sea of laundry and sippy cups.

Working moms, I’m sorry if this bothers you.  I’ve been told many times before that others would love to be in my position.  But rest assured that there are others that would love to be in yours for a little while.  And stay-at-home-moms, if you’ve never felt this way, you have my admiration.  But if you have, then you have my support.

Now, back to the fabric . . . isn’t it great?  It’s for two little boys; one I get to hold every day, and one I’ve never met.  I’m glad that, in between folding clothes and cleaning the bathroom, I’ve got something like this to look at and think about.  Thank God for hobbies, right?  What do you think about while you’re doing those drab little duties that make up your workday?  Anyone care to share what makes them excited and, in a sense, keeps them exciting?


5 Responses to “Day 13: This Is Not Boring”

  1. 1 Amber Parker September 29, 2009 at 10:21 am

    I think we all have those days. Days when you would just love to get dressed and feel lovely… like a woman, not a mom. I’ve been doing this for less than a year and I know I do! I spent some time looking through old writings the other day, reminiscing and laughing at the fact that the most exciting thing I’ve written in the past year is a shopping list! Nathan was getting a little tired of “remember this, honey?” and “look!, this actually WON something!” but it was nice to remember the girl that came before the mom.

  2. 4 everydaychaos September 30, 2009 at 2:06 am

    Amber, those are amazing. I especially like the second one. You should start writing again! You have a gift for putting emotions into words, you really do.

  3. 5 chiffon October 5, 2009 at 8:16 am

    I am a stay home mom now!!so I TOTALLY AGREE what you say and thought…..I go out with my friends once a while and keep thinking Ethan but sometimes I want to my own time when I with him!!

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